to be happy? or not?

heard of the news of the change of name of Hwa Chong Junior College and The Chinese High on Sun...dunno why...was quite nonchalent when i first heard it...because i knew something bad was brewing? haix...dunno lar...expected the first day of school to be full of discussion about the name and whatsoever...and it did not fail my expectations...

first...let me just release some pent up anger first...went jogging...then along the way to the oac bench, walked past the A14 or A15 class bench...then this group of girls, apparently J1s, were busily critising the name and etc...saying this and that about the chinese name of the new school after merger...at the point of arrriving at the bench, really wanted to go over to give them a piece of my mind...hello?!?!?...take note that the name of the school that you are criticising is the alma mater of quite a number of us? who the hell are you all to criticise about the name?!?!?...you all have the right not to accept...to have your own viewpoints...but shut those foul traps of yours if you want to start criticising and make a big joke out of it! how would you feel if i start to criticise your school?!?!? insensitive shit...apparently...according to my personality type(phlegmatic-peaceful)...i just walked stright to take a bath and refuse to listen anymore...

to those reading...sorry for the outburst...just wanted to let out some steam...

back to the change of school name...personally...i think that for those who have a definite stand of like or dun like...they are the lucky ones...for me...i am pretty much torn in between lar...maybe other guys who are from tchs also...i dunno whether to be happy or not...one side...the name "hua qiao zhong xue" can stay...surviving the test of time...but on the other hand...no more "hua zhong chu ji xue yuan"...so...am i supposed to be happy or not?

remember one assembly in tchs where we were discussing the future of tchs...koh yong chiah was still telling us..."the brand name of 'hua qiao zhong xue' have lasted over 80 years...if there is merger with HCJC...the name might be gone forever...give it a thought...'hua qiao zhong xue' have survived the turbulent 1960s...withstanding pressure from the government to close...but it has survived...maintaining this name all these while...but to lose the name of 'hua qiao zhong xue' like this...after is has survived trial after trial...dun you all think that it is a waste?"...his words really set me thinking at that time...how this brand name will weather through this period...

now...there will not be anymore HCJC...getting negative feedbacks from various sources...dun like...dun accept...etc...guess that i will always have this different opinion from some of them...this perspective that considers both TCHS and HCJC...cos i have experienced both schools...there will always be people who dun like whatever decision made...but guess this case was to "sacrifice for the big picture"?..."85 years history more valuable than 30 years"?...some people might not agree with me...but i really dun want to starting defending this and that...it is a fact that the name will change...no use getting into needless arguments or conflicts...

then lastly...some afterthoughts about loving our school...during discussion with mrs tan during bio tut...how can we accurately judge if the students love the jc? selling hundreds worth of carnival tickets? i think this is quite superficial...i sell $100 worth, but then i abuse school property etc? i think real love for the school comes from the little actions that we do in our everyday schooling...the carnival started out as a good idea...i must say...the teachers may plan their sweat out...but the execution of procedures...certain small things really turn people off...dousing their spirits...must say that they dun treat students seriously...wan to do something for school? set up a stall...about 3 weeks before the carnival...tell us that rock wall found 2 loose panels...cannot use...i was actually looking forward to the stall...but at such late notice...and with that cancelling off all our planning and work...to be truthful...i am pissed...disillusioned...it is not like we only submitted proposal very late...late feb!!! the school admin din even bother to maintain the wall and tell us last minute cannot use...brushing us off with that and telling us to try something if we can...oh come on...i cannot be bothered liao...it is not like i dun want to support the carnival...sales bad...we absorb the tickets...i accept the outcome liao...never mind...but little actions like forcing us to buy the T-shirt was really oppression in my view...what are we? money source to suck dry? when i found out that they are selling the T-shirt during carnival for coupons...to be truthful...i was very angry...to be extreme...exploitative...this is certainly not fair at all! with all these...how are we to show enthuasiasm? buying T-shirt and selling lotsa coupons does not equate to lving the school...

enough said...exhausted...can be bothered liao...